Wat Can I saY all is JusT fate

i have nth much to say all i can sae is...fate...we have no fate to be together...even the very last...thing which can click us..together de...i oso loss it...well...shall n0t like last time le ba time to wake up which i told myself everydae again and again...now i m typing tis post but my heart is...thinking of him..i gues...wth...i simplfy dun understand why do others always have a wonderful r/s awsome..r/s...turn n look at myslf..wat do u have...nth...u totally have nth...study cannot...working cannot...r/s worst....alll cannt....damn useless...i dun even knw y am i here....
i sae tat i dun wan to call or sms u but yet i done it...wtf m i doing i dunno..yet i m afraid that he one dae reply me that sowee i dun need ur wake up call anymore..as my gf will do it..sigh..totally dunno wtf m i doing...hais.....